a few ramblings, and this n that

how's this blog I wrote a while ago, boyz oh boyz... sometimes i wonder?

I just got back from a lengthy walk with my two dogs. We went to the bird sanctuary, again, lots of open thinking space for me, and running around space for them, in the rain. well actually it was more like a slow drizzle, but boy, we all needed it! I have been cooped up all day and was desperate for some fresh air and exercise. They walk so beautifully obediently together like a harnessed team, on my left as though they have always done that -two huge dogs, one blond, one black, in perfect step.

I have been trying to work all day, and you know what? I have got.... absolutely nowhere!! All that wasted time. Sometimes i wonder why I do this stuff, it is way too hard, and who am I trying to kid? I just kept hitting blank moments of what now, and how and why. My mind is full of Porters 5 forces stuff and Supply chain management, but it doesn't seem to help. There are areas in my work I feel great in, full of confidence and fully capable, but then there are those that leave me feeling like this.

If you can just allow me to briefly have a moment?...: I am feeling sooooo inadequate right now. Why don't I choose a simple job I can do? typical me, always choosing a challenge, always floundering in the deep end. I don't know why i do this. what am i hoping to achieve at the end of it all, what am i trying to prove? I have an ever present offer of help, but you know, I would love it if I could rise above this and do it MYSELF. When will it happen, when will I reach that stage? I never know when to give up do I...thanks, moment over, back to the challenge.

Anyway, on a much needed lighter note, I must tell you about last night. We were invited to a lovely birthday/ new baby Braydon, supper at our friends, Emlyn and Tarryn. we had to bring any food starting with the letter B. We all landed up cooking there and just brought the ingredients with.


His friend, Dewalt did brinjal slices with mustard, salt, pepper and cheese grilled on it as a starter, yummy delicious, Emlyn did a baby leek, butternut & brinjal dish, baked in a banana leaf bowl that he made - also yummy delicous, and Kevin did a Barillo pasta, with basil and whole tomatoes and Vermouth - very yummy too.

We finished it off with a tiny banana pudding in condensed milk and 'engeltjie piepie' honey stuff drizzled over it, extra yummy! Ironically all the men were the cooks - i have a picture to prove it, and will post it on soonest. Emlyn & Dewalt are both professional chefs. What a tantalising to the taste buds meal.

The table decor was whole bright green huge banana leaves with blood red rose petals - quite different. We had a fantastic evening - just a quiet meal with good friends, outside by the fire. beautiful warm summer evening. And, Emlyn used my tea bags in meths idea, which I learned from my friend Richard, to light the fire, which he also learned about from his friend Dewalt!!! Yay, at last, someone used it!!! It really works!!










It was also Diane's birthday yesterday and will be Kev's soon. quite a busy birthday time.

It is friday evening and I am working.